My friend, Cindra, responded to my post last month sincerely searching for an answer that I feel was well worth responding to. I think many of you will connect to it. Below it you’ll find my response.
Comment from Cindra: “My work with you was a perfect example of exactly what you just described. I didn’t have $2000 and had no idea where I was going to get it…but I had to work with you and I knew I had to do more than just have a few sessions…I needed the fullest experience you had to offer. Within days of that decision, a check for exactly $2000 appeared in my mailbox – completely unsolicited, unrequested by me. Granted, it was from a credit card company and it took me two years to pay it back…but there it was, exactly on time for me to fully commit to working with you. If I’m not mistaken, that was also the time when you needed to buy a computer and my $2000 came at the right timing to help make that possible, so that my commitment and manifestation also supported your own. Pretty darn cool!
I wish I could say that I have duplicated that process many times since then, but I haven’t. It is something that happens for me, but happens rarely. However, every time it does happen, it happens effortlessly.
Therefore, more and more I am inclined to believe that having this kind of manifestation occur has less to do with my ability to commit or my ability to manifest, than it has to do with my need or desire being in alignment with some greater purpose or plan that I am not aware of. This possibility has been at the forefront of my consciousness recently and seems to be the key that I have been asking for.
Outer physical appearances in my life suggest that I am not manifesting my dreams, which the current spirituality movement would have one believe is a clear indication that I am somehow blocking my good. I have participated in classes, workshops, and listened to talks at my spiritual center, learning and absorbing the “principles.” I have taken classes and workshops with experts who have proven through their own lives that their methods of manifestation work. And yet, my life remains where it is and I am not moving into the life I have in my mind. I am certainly not abundantly prosperous and therefore not able to do many of the things I’d like to do.
So I have been questioning why this is and whether or not this interpretation of my reality is the truth. If it is the truth, then I need to clear the block in any way possible. If it is not the truth then I need to know what the truth of my life and how it evolves is.
As a result, I have pulled back from participating in spiritual workshops, training, programs, and healing sessions. I have felt compelled to step away from spiritual experts, guides, and gurus in order to seek the purest personal experience of God and my own higher guidance. After all, over and over again in my life I have been shown that adopting someone else’s method (no matter how perfectly I apply it) will never result in the same outcome for me as it did for them…no matter what any expert may say to the contrary.
The very surprising result of my commitment to simply trust that all the answers are within me already has been that I have been consistently receiving messages that deliberately creating and manifesting what I “want” my life to be and what I envision as the life that I want is not my path.
This flies in the face of current spiritual trends that would have one believe that proven spiritual methods will always work if followed diligently. It also flies in the face of current spiritual declarations that if one is not financially prosperous it is because there is some kind of malfunction of one’s belief and that one has separated themself from God.
So it is a little uncomfortable to consider embracing a belief that God has a plan for me that I cannot see, a plan that suggests that material prosperity is meaningless and unimportant to this plan. In such a plan it is critical that I embrace, instead, the realization that I am always taken care of and that the things I “want” in addition are somehow unimportant at this point in my evolution…and that when I want something that is actually in alignment with this greater “Plan” it will indeed manifest effortlessly and in the perfect time once I have made a commitment to it.”
From Maren: “Thank you for the comment here. I know what a struggle it’s been for you around working to create and manifest your dreams. I know how hard you’ve worked at it. Although I talk about the Law of Attraction in my upcoming book, I also talk about Beyond the Law of Attraction. All I can say is that I think there are many things we don’t have control over and are beyond what we can understand based on our limited perceptions. I don’t know that anyone really knows how this whole thing works. I think many people think they know, but is that really just their attempt to categorize everything so they can feel safe? It seems all we can do is to work to express the love that we are as best we can. It seems to me we do this because it brings us joy so that we can share that joy others.”
From Cindra: “Hearing my thoughts reframed through a separate perception is so helpful and clarifying. I’m happy to hear that you’ve addressed this conundrum in your book, too.”
To All of You: As we move through this holiday season, I encourage you all to remember your passion.
Blessings, Maren Nelson