I recently sent out a message to my friends and clients letting them know that I will be making a trip to Los Angeles June 21-23. I received a response from a dear friend of mine, and I asked her if I could share our conversation here on my blog. She readily agreed. I think many of you will enjoy and perhaps, gain value from it:
Hi, Maren…
Unfortunately, Robert (my roommate) moved back home to Northern California, which created a blessed crisis for me.
When he moved in with me I told God that Robert was my final roommate, that by the time he was ready to move on I would no longer need a roommate. Well, when he was ready to move on, I was not ready to afford this place on my own…which pissed me off. So I simply told God that enough is enough. I’m tired of waiting. I’m done. It’s now or never, increased income or no increased income. So I took a leap of faith and have not gotten another roommate. Instead I committed to creating Cindra’s Studio in my second bedroom that I was renting out. And believe me, I deliberately run the loop of your voice reciting that quote:
“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. …The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. … Whatever you do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.”
I may not get the quote entirely correct, but I retained the essential parts and I challenged God to make it so for me. Not just everyone else, not just in a quote, but for ME. It’s time. I’m done waiting for a better life, for more freedom. It needs to be now, and this was my clear message of exactly what form my “leap of faith” was to take.
As you know, I’ve been working on “launching” my business for goodness knows how long and it’s still not up and running, it’s still not bringing in any income. So I’m pinching every penny in order to compensate for the loss of the income from a roommate. At the same time, I’m putting aside any little bit of extra money that comes my way in order to be able to hire a business coach so that I can break the cycle of future-thinking and create my business in present reality now.
All that to explain why I can’t afford to do a session with you right now. I can’t believe the timing on this.
Cindra
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I understand Cindra. No problem.
It seems that I’ve heard you share that at times you are angry with God because you feel you are not supported in the fulfillment of your dreams. I’d like to share some ideas I have that may help your journey. I hope they will.
I do not believe that God is an individualized being with individualized perceptions, judgments, and emotions. Even the word God seems to infer an individualized being. The only reason I use it is that it is a word most people use and understand to be a Higher Power or the Great Spirit.
I’ve started reading “A Course in Miracles” again and am reminded that God does not recognize our belief in separation from each other, All That Is, and Him. This Great Spirit shares with us All That Is and All That We Are with only the pure truth of Love. Our perceptions of lack stem from the belief in separation and in God’s eyes, does not exist.
However, in our Earthly experiences in these physical bodies, with our beliefs, perceptions and judgments, sometimes we do experience lack. According to the Course, it is not God who creates our experience of lack, but ourselves. I don’t believe that to be angry with God and make deals with God is going to help. It is within ourselves and our minds that the change needs to happen.
Believe me, I’m right there with you in working to correct my mind of the belief in separation and lack. Most things in this world seem to tell us they are real, i.e.: our bodies and all that seems to exist outside of us.
I do know, however, that we are not alone, and that we have powerful assistance to make this correction of the mind. Some people would refer to this as the Holy Spirit. It is that divine connection we have that exists within us and also around us as Spirit Guides, Ascended Masters and angels. I like to think of this as the Voice for God.
Perhaps, as you and I ask for assistance to heal our minds, we will come to know there is no separation or lack as God knows it. And through that, we will come to know and experience in this world, the abundance and love that is meant for all of us.
I share this with you with love, my dear friend. Maren
This is the first part to our conversation. I will be posting part 2 very shortly. Cindra’s response is beautiful. As always, remember your passion.
Blessings, Maren Nelson